Unbearable Suffering: My Battle Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense pain sprang behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid shocks, like lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the pain subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches returned frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-on agony in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically start with severe pain around one eye that lasts up to three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually begin with sudden, severe agony focused on one eye that peaks within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the figure fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, like many causes, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They linked the disease to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical records propose unusual remedies for what some observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by global headache committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple surgeries before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common headache conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor guided me through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode passed.

Official guidelines on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of some people.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the approach.” Short bouts with infrequent episodes are managed with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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Brittney Juarez
Brittney Juarez

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